I Wish I Knew...

I wish I knew long ago all that I know now because it would have spared me so much heartache. I wish all the years I spent wandering the wilderness of loneliness I would have trusted the unseen Presence I felt hold my hand.

I wish I had back all the wasted years I allowed myself to be mistreated because I didn't think I deserved to be loved. When I didn't have a clue what love meant. I wish I had back all the time I fretted because I wasn't pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough. Time wasted because I didn't believe I was good enough.

I wish I would have believed in myself enough when I was a young girl in high school to dream about what I wanted to be when I grew up. Made plans to go to college and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I could make a good future for myself.

But I know now that all the time there has been One who has walked beside me my whole life and at times has even carried me. In His eyes I have always been beautiful and my weight has never been an issue. He has always believed in me and never doubted my intelligence of ability. Whenever I cried, He cried with me. When He looks upon me, He doesn't see faults and flaws but rather He sees a perfect child whom He loves beyond my ability to comprehend. He believes me perfect because He made me that way. How do I know you ask? Because He told me so.

Until we meet here again, I pray God bless you and keep your loved ones safe.