Looking For Lightbulbs Alone
The other day Jackie and I went to Walmart to buy some of the new energy saving lightbulbs for the fixtures in our house. We found the isle we were looking for and it was empty except for one woman who I was guess was roughly my age. She stood there looking for a bulb that matched the picture of the packaging she had on her phone.
As we stood there looking at what seemed like hundreds of bulbs, I told Jackie I didn't have a clue how we would know which type was what we wanted. The woman, still searching, looked at us and said she couldn't believe how hard it was to buy a light bulb. She had been looking for her bulb for quite some time without success. She went on to tell us that she had very recently lost her husband and he took care of things like replacing lightbulbs, always getting the right one.
I spoke up before Jackie had time to as I could see the overwhelming sadness in her eyes. I told her my husband would be glad to help her, which he was. After Jackie located the bulb she needed, she thanked him for his help. The she went on to tell us how she always knew her husband spoiled her, but since he had passed she realized more and more each day just how much he took care of. She started to cry and said "I just miss him so much. I don't think I will ever get used to being without him".
I felt so bad for this woman I never met before and I could feel her pain. I touched her arm and did the only thing I knew to do. I told her I would pray God would give comfort to her broken heart. She patted my hand and said thank you. As she walked away wiping the tears from her eyes with a well used tissue, I said, "God bless you" and she returned the blessing to me.
I have thought a lot thru the years how lost I would be without Jackie. How intertwined our lives and hearts are. How much he does for me and takes care of around here. How much I used to have to do on my own that he now takes care of. If anything ever happened to him it would truly be like I lost the best half of me and I would be lost. Sadly I know far to many people who have lost spouses, children, siblings, best friends. The people who defined and gave meaning to lives. Life is a gift so make it count because we never know when we will be looking for lightbulbs alone.
Until we meet here again, I pray God bless you and keep your loved ones safe.